First of all thank you to all that have visited my blog and offered support, to whomever put my news on LFCA and to my family and friends for the emails and texts.
I wish I could say that everything went great over the weekend and that for once my body did what it was supposed to and responded to the meds to get rid of the sac.
It didn't.
Still in there holding on tight. Hasn't grown since Thursday, but still there clinging to my uterus with what has to be the strongest implantation known to man. If only there was a baby in there.
I have taken four doses (yep, you read that right for those of you who have been through this) of Misoprostol and nothing. I prepared myself for horrid pain and massive bleeding until it was all gone and nothing. Not even enough bleeding to fill a pad. Unbelievable.
So after doing anything I could to avoid a d & c (since this will be my 3rd) that is what is going to have to happen. I really prayed that after everything else this could just happen naturally for once. Wrong again. Surgery scheduled for Wednesday afternoon. It just seems as though nothing can go right.
At least hopefully then I can move on and begin to heal.
There is no end to the cruelty that this world has. I just wish it didn't shit it out like this. I'm so sorry you have to do this again.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that you're having to go through this again. Praying hard for you and that your procedure will go easily tomorrow. My heart just hurts for you. Praying for healing and peace for you. You're in my thoughts, K.
ReplyDeleteThat sucks. Why can't it ever be easy? I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and I'm hoping it goes smoothly. I'm praying for healing too!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry you have to go through this again. Sending prayers your way for strength during your recovery.
ReplyDeleteOh no, I am so very sorry you are being thrown into this again. I can't imagine the pain you are in. Hope you can find some relief in knowing we are all here for you, thinking of you everyday...xoxo
ReplyDeleteYou're not alone in this, lovely lady. Many prayers and positive vibes coming your way for the D&C tomorrow. So sorry this has to be so difficult!
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry, K. I am seriously thinking about you and praying for you every day. I hope the D&C is painless and quick and I hope that you have a speedy recovery. Hugs.
ReplyDelete:( I'm so, so sorry.
ReplyDelete(((Hugs))) I am so sorry - my heart sunk even further seeing that you are having to go through this! Thinking of you and hoping that the D&C goes smooth & recovery is easy on you!
ReplyDeleteI'm just so sorry for this loss, and for everything you're going through. Just when you think it can't get any worse, there it is. It's cruel and unfair and you are so undeserving of it all. Wishing you a smooth procedure tomorrow so that you can finally begin to heal from this loss.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking of you my dear, I know how hard this is, I will say I did a natural miscarriage and I will never it do that again....I ended up having a surgery almost a year and half later to remove parts from the pregnancy that never made it out, my body just like them too much. I am so glad they are watching you. Unlike you I was sent on my way with out a follow up, I mean what can go wrong!? Right? And I am glad they are taking care of you - I know how hard it is to let go and have surgery to removed something that you wanted to let go of naturally, but if your body cannot do it, you do need help. Please know you are not alone. I hope that perhaps they can give you some answers. Thinking about you today.
ReplyDeleteI didn't know where to leave this- but just wanted you to know you've been in my thoughts all day. I hope that everything went quickly and your Dr. was tender with you. Tenderness is what you need most right now.
ReplyDeleteJust saw your news. My heart aches along with you. I know those feelings of pain and anger all too well and I'm so sorry for what happened and all you're going through. I think I understand why you wanted to let nature take its course, but I've always (with each of my losses) kind of felt like having a d&c gave me a measure of control over things, and that helped a little. Take care of yourself, K. I'll be thinking about you.
ReplyDeleteUgh, K...I'm just so sorry. What a long and painful journey this is. Know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteThere are no words other than I am so sorry!!!
ReplyDeleteI have to tell you how terribly sorry I am. I just saw the news. I thought I was following your blog, but it must have errored somehow. I am so sorry you are going though this.
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