I've got a case of the I should be's today. I think like this often, more than I'd like to admit.
I'm admitting it today.
I should be celebrating my one year old's birthday this week.
I should be sitting here with my five month old.
I should be 36 weeks 2 days along, with a c section scheduled June 18th.
It brings me to tears often for all that has been lost. It brings me to embrace what I have been given.
It makes me remind myself God had a plan for me.
No symptoms this week. Will test this weekend and if not pregnant going to have a big talk with my nurse about being more aggressive.
God has a plan. I try and live in the moment, but I am always aware of what should be....