Monday, May 7, 2012

Manic Monday

So let's take a stoll back to Saturday night.  I totally started having noticible ovaries and I could tell something was going on. I thought, "holy smokes, something for sure is happening in there". I happily went about my night thinking that the -I will rip your head off in a moments notice- rage and crabbiness given by the Clomid this month was worth it...this was going to be MY month to get pregnant again.
Fast forward to this morning, when that little wonderful smiley face popped up on my OPK telling me "this is it - another picture perfect CD 14 ovulation".
My husband and I hopped in the car and off to the RE we went with visions of ripened follicles dancing in my head.
Not so much.
One piddly 13 mm on my left ovary and multiple 10's hanging out on the right.
That's not the only kicker. I have a small amount of fluid in my uterus...'not good' according to the doctor as she jabbed the wand at my innards while shaking her head in disappoinment at my bodies reaction to the upped dosage. Apparently this fluid can impede on implantation and I will definitely be lowering my dose back down next month.
Cue the tears as I sat in her office frustrated and confused. How could I have a lh surge with such small follicles? Now I can't even rely on those? What the heck is with the fluid? And the ovulation pain? And the giant random temp spike this morning with no signs of ovulation on the ultrasound?
She didn't count me out for the cycle, but it doesn't sound good.
I put a call into the nurse to see if I can get in again this week to check on that follicle and see if the fluid magically disappeared. Of course she didn't call me back.

It kinda feels like I walked under a ladder while a black cat crossed my path after spilling salt on the mirror I just cracked on Friday the 13th.

Bad luck can't last forever.  


  1. Was there any sign that you could have already ovualted from a more mature follie? I'm sorry hun, this has to be so frustrating.

    1. She didn't think so, and my temp was back low this morning, so I'm guessing it was just a random fluke temp. Maybe I was crazy dreaming or something. Positive stick again today. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens. Maybe that little buddy will find some miracle grow in there and ripen in the next day. Crazier things have probably happened!

  2. I'm so sorry that your appointment didn't go as planned. =( I hope that they nurse calls you back. And I just HATE when there's fluid in there. They never tell us what it means!!

  3. Ugh, I'm so sorry for all this confusion. I had the same thought as Josey that maybe you already dropped a bigger egg. I have heard of people getting O confirmed with an ultrasound but I asked about that at my last ultrasound before my IUI was cancelled because I was so worried about O'ing early on my own (I WISH that had happened) and she said they wouldn't be able to tell because the follicle fills up with fluid after it releases the egg and ends up looking exactly the same on the ultrasound? Did they give you any indication of why there is fluid in your uterus or what can be done about it? So sorry you're going through this. The not knowing what's going on is the worst part of all of this. Hang in there and keep us updated.

  4. I am sorry for the confusing ovulation pain & fluid. Sending lots of positive vibes and hope you are able to get back to the drs office this week! Wishing you the best!

  5. Thank you so much for sharing your experience with PCOS. I am still waiting on a call back from my doctor. I am so sorry about the clomid messing with you. We are on a few unmonitored cycles before our next ivf. I am almost happy about that. Maybe I can just live with the pure ignorant bliss of not knowing whatis going on. Hopefully you wont be out on this cycle and your luck will change!