Friday, July 27, 2012

On Edge

I feel like I am constantly waiting for bad news. Every blood test, appointment or phone call is the one that is going to send me reeling to that dreaded place of grief again.

I am completely on edge.

Today's ultrasound left me still standing there. Things were good but it's still so early. The nurse even joked that they torture us by bringing us in so early and often. Ugh - she isn't kidding.

We saw a gestational sac in a perfect spot in my uterus. It was measuring right on target at 5w3d. The tech "thought she saw" a yolk sack but couldn't be sure, so she couldn't count it as one yet. Great. She also saw a little blood in there, far from where the sac is. According to them it's super common and in about 70% of the pregnancies they have. Again, most don't know they have it bc they aren't getting ultrasounds at 5 weeks. it should reabsorb but if I start "bleeding or spotting lightly" don't panic. Right lady. She offered to do an HCG check to help make me feel better. Um, I don't think so, I just stopped obsessing over researching Monday's number.

So according to them, things are looking good for this early in the game. Back again Thursday for another ultrasound.

I don't think I'll ever be able to stand back from this edge.

11 comments:

  1. Praying for peace as you wait. <3

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  2. It sounds like things are as good as they can be for this early, but I know what you mean about it not really being reassuring yet. I don't know why they make us go in SO early, when it still leaves so many unanswered questions! But the sac is a good sign, and I will be praying about the blood issue... that it NOT be an issue at all, and that it would be gone by Thursday's sono. There always has to be something, right? Sorry, friend.

    I really am praying lots throughout the day for this little one, and for you. Hoping Thursday gets here quickly and that it will finally give you the peace of mind you so deserve! Thanks for keeping us updated!

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  3. Oh, K. I wish they could have provided more so you wouldn't have to worry. It's so hard this early in the game--not much to reassure you. I'm so glad to hear that the u/s looked appropriate for how far along you are. Take care this weekend!

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  4. I know how torturous these first few weeks are. At least it sounds like everything looks good at this point. I also had the blood spot/hematoma. They saw it at my first u/s last week, and when I went back this week it was almost gone. I was told the same thing as you, that most of the time people don't even know they have them because they don't have early ultrasounds and are reabsorbed by the time you have an u/s at a "normal" time. I know it's hard, but try and hang in there! Try and do something nice for yourself, a pedicure perhaps?

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  5. Wishing you lots of luck!! I remember that feeling going in so early, we could see the fetal pole, but were unable to get an actual measurement so they made us go back the next week, everything seems very scary. Congrats!!

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  6. Glad things are looking good! One day at a time...and I don't know why they have to mention specific things like a blood spot. Say the sac is in the right place - anything else just worries us. That's all they are really checking at this point anyway.

    Congrats!

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  7. I am so happy for you that things are looking good. I hope they continue to and you can continue to post happy ultrasound reults!!

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  8. Praying for you! Good luck at your next u/s appointment!

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  9. XO & lots of positive thoughts coming your way. You're on Maeve& Fi's prayer list, too!

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  10. I can't post from my darn phone :( I've been keeping up with you and thinking about you. I truly hope that things continue to go positively for you. It's so hard to be in these early stages. I know you've been there before, too. You're in my prayers :)

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  11. Checking in late from ICLW. Hoping for good news from the ultrasound later this week!

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