Monday, July 15, 2013

The Post That Took Me 39 Weeks to Write

I have tried to come here and write this post countless times over the past ten months.

My fingers would freeze, I'd start to cry, and I'd shut the computer off.

That cycle back in October, the one where I went to my follicle scan, missed my ovulation and cancelled my IUI cycle?

I ate my doubtful words, because I became pregnant.

It has been 39 weeks filled with more anxiety than I ever thought possible, with the tiniest bit of excitment bubbling underneath the surface.

There were countless doctors appointments, about 20 something ultrasounds (each one with a good amount of tears both before and afterwards), 270 Lovenox injections, blood draws galore and one blessed and beyond scary delivery that I'll talk about later.

I literally never thought I'd be here. All the losses without answers left me empty and at times without hope. People had started telling me maybe I should just give up and live my life with Nora and be happy.

I'm glad I didn't give up. I hope no one gives up.

Avery Eliana was born July 12...healthy and happy and a perfect rainbow baby girl...








19 comments:

  1. Oh my goodness!!! I am so incredibly happy for you! Congrats mamma!

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  2. I knew it! I just KNEW this is why you had gone silent. And I'm so happy for you! Beautiful name and a beautiful baby girl, I'm sure. Congrats, friend! I'm so relieved there was some sun and a rainbow after that long and dreadful storm you endured. xoxo

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  3. Oh this is so awesome! I had so hoped that this was why you went silent for so long! I'm sitting here crying tears of joy because I am so, so happy for you! Congrats on your beautiful rainbow baby girl!

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  4. What a beautiful name for your little girl. Congrats on becoming a mom! So happy for you :)

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  5. Oh my goodness congratulations :) so incredibly happy for you and your beautiful little rainbow :)

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  6. What wonderful news! Congratulations to all of you! Welcome baby girl!!!

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  7. Oh I am soooooooo Happy for you, I completely understand your fears, tears and tribulations... they are so complex when dealing with a pregnancy...This gives me hope!!! I wish you the best for you and your new little one!!! Congrats!!

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  8. Was that your first cycle taking lovenox once you got your bfp? I have read so many stories that blood thinners was the saving grace after multiple miscarriages. I hope that Dr. Kim starts me on them after my visit with her.

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    1. Yes it was my first cycle...even though I never tested positive for any clotting issues I really pushed to be on it and both doctors agreed. So glad I did...email me if you have any questions. Can't wait to hear what dr. Kim says, and how your trip here goes!

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  9. WOW!! This just blew my mind that you kept this a secret your entire pregnancy. Congrats, K!!!

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  10. That is wonderful!!! Congratulations to and welcome to the world Avery!!!!

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  11. Congrats!! I have been waiting for this post for many months!! ;)

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  12. Oh my gosh, I busted out crying when I read this! I'm so happy for you and can't wait to hear more, and hope you'll share pics! Congratulations!! I love the name Avery :)

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  13. Congratulations!!!! Wow!!! Can't wait to hear how things are going and see pics!!!

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  14. What a beautiful surprise! Sending so many congratulations and lots of wishes for the future with your TWO little girls.

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  15. Oh my goodness, Congrats!!! So THRILLED for you!!

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  16. I cannot wait to meet this miracle! She is one lucky girl!!! Love you, Kate! xoxo

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